Being a skinny girl is hard..

Did i say "girl" in the title? ok,ok being a skinny "woman" is hard. dan dan tukar jadik woman kan padahal the girlishness still strong inside. still listen to r&b songs (baby feat ludacris tuh). oh why in the hell people say if you listen to hitz.fm = you are just an immature girl, if u listen to mix.fm, you are a now a woman. siapa2 yg pandai2 buat konsep sebegitu rupa sila angkat tangan. it is just a matter of songs honey! nothing to do with the level of maturity.(padahal takut org cop kite tak matang). ok,back to the topic ye please.
yes, it is never easy to be a fatty creature in the world nor a skinny freaking lady. gemuk gila babas pon salah,kurus kering gile pon salah if you are born as a woman. but if you are a man, u gemok gedempol cam tong sampah pon tarahal.boleh camtu? tolong nyatakan sebab. i dont want explain much but just to give an example. have u ever bumped into a very loving couple with the woman which is so damn pretty and tall like hanis zalikha ,holding hands with a fat short man macam fei mau. i bet u know fei mau,u watch his movie kan?i would want to give link to fei mau's blog. fei mau ada blog kah?gemok cam tong sampah.hahaha. ha marela tu when i tease him gemok?i have my own reason why i tease fats people. because people say if you keep teasing or saying something bad about somebody, it will revert back to you. so i desperately want to gain weight so i started teasing people who are fat like tong sampah . until one day,i realise why in the hell i am still thin.??? i have cursed 100+ fat people and why it does not revert back to me? ?simple.because u dont eat as much as the fat people.!.nothing to do with whatsoever teasing la.pandai2 je tau...ataupun,you do eat as much as them but will hardly put on weight because you have a very high metabolism. so,whatever the reason is, i am so very determine to gain as much kilos as i can! because i look ugly and i feel very depressed when i'm thin! because i feel tired 24/7 (apa,ingat petani je penat ke?org kerja opis pun penat gak tau). you know when you are too thin,you tend to feel weak. reasons? sorry i dont provide reasons to this because me myself do not know why?pls tell me if you know the answer ok?so,this morning i eat like i have not seen food for years! and nevertheless,i take my supplements everyday,with 2litres of water evryday,and 2cups of CCPP everyday..please please let me be fat!!i know i can do this!